a jumbled mess
That would be the way to describe my brain this morning. A ton of things swirling in my head….so I think I’ll resort to trusty bullets:
- I love to scrapbook. REALLY. Love the creative outlet. I get all excited about ideas while I’m driving, while I’m working, while I’m laying in bed trying to sleep. Then I get home, get dinner out of the way, hang with the family for a little bit, and then have time to scrap….so what do I do? Sit down at this computer. Read a few blogs. Answer a few emails. Instant message. I think that part of it is that I am afraid that I won’t do those ideas justice. That the inspiration is good, but the execution won’t be. I need to get over that.
- I want to be a better photographer. I don’t have a great camera. I have a good camera. And I’m committed to using the heck out of it before I spend any more money on cameras. But here’s part of my dilemma: my kids don’t do cute things anymore. I’m not going to capture them playing dress up. Not going to shoot great pics of them getting dirty with finger paints. Should I be taking pictures of Hope straightening her hair? Of Austin brushing his teeth? Maybe. I just know that I need to find a groove that isn’t my-kid-playing-sports, and isn’t my-kid-posing-for-the-camera.
- I am frustrated by a current drama that is unfolding with one of my friends. Having to justify my place in his life. My place in his life….geez, how Dr. Phil does THAT sound? Anyway, I hope that all works out. Bonus points for Rob on his take on the situation, and for his sense of humor about it.
- I have a cool job. I’m good at it. But lately, I don’t have the drive that I used to. i feel like there’s so many other things that I could be doing. I would say that those feelings are a sign that it’s time to make a change…except all of those other things involve not working. LOL. That’s not going to happen. And that’s just fine…I can achieve what I need to at work. I’m just not that excited about it right now. This too shall pass, right?
- I think that I should make some New Year’s Resolutions. Or at least write some things down so that I make the pen-to-paper or fingers-to-keyboard commitment. I don’t want it all to get lost in this jumbled mess of a brain.
- Back to scrapbooking. I’d love to be published. My Mom is a published writer…I’d love to follow in her footsteps. But when I see what some of the "names" are doing….well, it’s pretty darn intimidating. I’ll never be a name (although I know at least one person who is reading this is a shoe-in for HOF….so at least I’ll know a name). I’d really like someone to just be straight up blunt with me about whether or not I’m good enough to be pub’d. Not one of my friends who is just being nice. Not you, either, Mom. 🙂
Heading upstairs to make some oatmeal. Have a nice day (great…now I’ve got that Bon Jovi song stuck in my head). See ya.
10 Comments
corinne
totally get you of almost every point made!
have a nice day, darn have the song now too in my head!
corinne5xxx
Sonia
sounds like you’re at a crossroad in your life. Hang in there…..you’ll figure it all out 🙂
Oh, and I absolutely LOVE your scrappin’ style. Seriously. I try to copy it, but then I feel guilty by not being “true” to my own style….but you rock. I think your stuff is faboo! And I”m not just saying that either. If I didn’t like your stuff, I wouldn’t comment (lol).
Tawnya
Good Morning Sunshine!
I hope you have a great day today and you know how I feel about your stuff and you know what I think you should do and so I will leave it at that! K?! K 🙂 Ok so talk to you soon then! 🙂
Shannon
Not being the scrapbook person, I won’t comment on it except to say that self-editing of any type isn’t good (how Dr. Phil is that?) Try the layouts you have ideas for. If they don’t work, oh well, lesson learned. Same with the photography. For every really good picture I take, there’s about ten that totally suck. I’ve found the key to taking photos of kids is to do it when they’re unaware you’re doing it. Get Hope reading or Austin watching basketball with his dad. I find that the more “arty” I try to be in the setup the worse the picture is. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t know what to do about your kids not doing cute things anymore because Patrick is still in the cute phase (although, not in attitude right now). Work seems to be THE topic of conversation amongst my friends right now. We’re all good at what we do, but feel we’re lacking in drive and motivation. Maybe it’s just a temporary thing because it’s winter and dreary. Maybe it’s something deeper. As for the drama of your friend, I would say, based on the little bit of fact you give that it’s out of your control. What ever happens, happens. I know it’s easier said than done, but you really shouldn’t spend time worrying about it if you have no control over it. Ha. Wish I could follow my own advice.
karen
hey cheer up, i am still insanely jealous of you!!!
Sara Rolfe
Hi Katrina
It’s Karen’s friend Sara from CT. She’s been getting after me for not emailing your blog. So this seemed to be a really good time to do so. Karen told me about your blog and your Two Peas page and I can’t quit checking up on you. I think I look forward the most to reading your blog than others. Your real. I like knowing you through Karen and I’ve seen how much you have grown in your scrapping. I talked to Karen yesterday and just told her how much I enjoyed your work and she got after me again! By the way Happy Late BIRTHDAY! So to let you know ~ I like your style and I do think you could get published. Now all you just have to do is submit. Just think then I’ll know a name! Just keep enjoying the hobbie.
I also told Karen when we make a date for a visit that she’ll have to let you know so you can come over for a cup of coffee. See you then Sara
P.s I love that little christmas tree stamp! Where did you find it?
Sara Rolfe
I also wanted to say thank you for letting me see Bri and Olivia more often. They have grown so much!
2 post in one day! LOL ~ sara
Carrie
Getting excited about scrapping, the ideas whirling around in your head all day, while you’re laying in bed trying to fall to sleep. Then when it comes time to scrap you find yourself distracted by the computer, that sounds so much like myself! I was thinking yesterday about how much I could get done, and how much my scrapping could improve if I just turned off the darn computer. I really thinking being pub’ed is just around the corner for you. You’re style is awesome, when I grow up I want to scrap just like you. 🙂
Wendy Reed (WendyReedPEA)
WOW…sounds like you were writing for my blog!!! I totally get what you are saying and I feel for you. I joke with my dh that I have a LOVE relationship with my computer…in fact at the moment I have Shons laptop with me on the couch. It’s part of me that my family doesn’t understand.
LOL
Can’t wait to meet you girlie!
Smiles,
Wendy
mom
Welcome to YOUR midlife crisis! Already had mine. LOL You’ll survive and go on to do great things and then I’ll know someone famous! Love ya!