welcoming the light of may.

We've had a streak of grey, rainy days lately….so a moment of light streaming through the living room window is cause for celebration (or at least documentation). 

I've been thinking about my goals for May, and realizing that now is actually NOT feeling like the time to focus. Life while selling a house is chaotic, and the month of May is historically a bit chaotic….so I've decided to simply embrace the chaos.

Austin is in the home stretch of Grade 11/Junior Year. He had a prom tux fitting on Thursday, and took the SATs on Saturday. He's working, studying, and challenging me (in infuriatingly age-appropriate ways). He'll be honored as a May Student of the Month on the 21st, courtesy of his art instructor. 

Hope turns 22 on Thursday (whatttt???) and heads to Thunder Bay on Friday. She'll be tree planting for at least a couple of months. Having her at home for the past couple of weeks has been so, so good. I am constantly in awe of the ways that she has found to absolutely thrive. 

I have a crazy week of work ahead, while continuing to juggle the tasks, emotions, and demands of trying to sell this house. We had an Open House today, and only one family showed up. I allowed myself a moment or two of feeling discouraged, but now I'm back to facing forward. A week from tomorrow, I'll head to New Orleans for the first Barb & Kat's Excellent Adventure of 2014. 

In the midst of it all, I'm finding my way to barre at least a few times per week, finding my way to my meditation cushion daily, drinking too much coffee (& likely too much wine), allowing tears to fall when necessary, neglecting proper meal planning, finding comfort in binge-watching old episodes of Grey's, and trying to just stay present. I'm still working on forgiveness, and feeling the strength of truly letting go of old patterns in relationships. 

Welcoming the light…and the chaos…of May.